pages in her world

i wish pictures could mean forever

the best thing about a picture is that it never changes even when people in it do.

know how it feels when u get left out?
know how it feels when people talk to u and u KNOW it's different?
know how it feels when u see people going on outings together that leave u out?
know how it feels when u see the old picture and wish it were like that again?
know how it feels when u actually even hesitate to talk to the person whom u never hesitated to call to?
know how it feels to not know what to say when there used to be no problem?
know how it feels to not be sure whether a person will still want to readily hear u out?
know how it feels to see people appear happier in a picture without u?
know how it feels when u know for sure it's never ever gonna be the same anymore?
know how it feels when that friend is no longer your friend?

i do.

shoes, shoes, shoes, where art thee?


sighhhh. I'm feeling so blue.
I never hated my poor memory that bad, till NOW. how I wish I could remember where I left it or when I last saw it. I sure hope it wasn't stolen from hall...
cos' whoever stole it, although I will admit that you definitely has good taste, (borrowing from Charlotte in Sex and the City to Mr. Big) "I curse the day you were born!!!"

urghhhhh.

life is uncertain, eat dessert first

"raspberry hazelnut truffle pop rocks" is the name of this delightful little cup. they serve this at the Marriott dinner time buffet. it tastes very sweet, kinda like ferrero rocher with a tinge of fruitiness from the berry. but what was truly amazing is the pop rocks hidden inside.

yes just for that single moment we were like little kids having indulging in our little packets of popping carbon dioxide and comparing who could make the loudest popping sound!
how entertaining is that!

so nostalgic.
i used to remember buying this at the mama shop near the playground along with its lollipop which u dipped into the rocks and licked.
this little 30 cents packet could keep me entertained for hours.
awwwwww...
as kids, we were so darn easily satisfied; the child inside of each and every one of us still lives =)

a little consolation

"When you’re struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it’s just as hard as what you’re going through."

Nicholas Sparks, Dear John

get out get out get out


im so stressed. i just feel like getting away from all this crappy load of work.

worth

when u feel like u have made a difference in someone's life even though u may mean absolutely nothing to some...it's enough...
and it's still very very very special.

good fridays

good friday 4 years ago...
good friday this year...
we have changed in looks obviously, but we're probably still the same old people 4 years ago. yes and we are all still excited to meet and update each other on stuff =)
I am a person who never really liked changes.
I prefer stability and permanence, especially when it comes to friendships and relationships. This may probably sound bad to some people, for life is always changing and only with change can we embrace new things.

But why would people want change when their present lives can be satisfying like that? Is a "perfect" life even attainable? Or is the ideal of what u think it can be just a lousy excuse for u to not treasure what u have presently? Are people just having unreasonable expectations of their own lives because they hate their present ones?

I've always thought that your life will only be happy if u make it to be;
ur satisfaction in life may not come from becoming a high achiever but rather from having a big heart for helping others, to others u may seem pathetic, but as long as u are happy, who cares what they think?Should u change just because there are people around you with different expectations of how your life should be? Real friends and people who love and understand u would accept u as who u are and push u to ur limits without attempting to change u completely.

I'd rather be a low achiever than have people dictate how my life should be. Yes in life, changes are inevitable, but they shouldn't affect your principals and how you choose to lead your own life.
Amongst many changes that take place, I'm glad for somethings which don't ever change.

good friday's breakfast at mac's, even a really short one, is always a good time to catch up with your buddies from secondary school.
and in another 4 years from now, we will be cheering to a decade of friendship =)

All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.
~Anatole France
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